scared to death

I have never been this scared of death before... we have just visited a relative of ours whose dad passed away while asleep. When life has so much to offer, when dreams come in endless queue, and when you want to do so much more one cant help but cringe to the idea of comfortably lying in a shiny coffin for people to see. I want to have a job, live recklessly elsewhere, get married and have kids someday and finally die in a ripe old age content with everything I have in life.

Sometimes there are just days when you want to hold dearly to the life you have and never wish it to be taken away, some days you just plead everything to end in a snap. But today, I pray for the former.

title??? i dont know..ummm.... love??

You love someone not because he gives the whole world at your command
..but because with him you learn that its intricacy is what makes it magnificent.

Not even because he reaches out the stars for you
… but because they seem brighter when you stare at them together.

You don’t love him because he is the epitome of perfection
… you’re just glad that you don’t have to be perfect to deserve this piece of sunshine.

Loving is not about smiling all day and walking in the clouds
… its about the unexpected burst of an array of feelings each time you’re together

I don’t even think that its because you have a promising future together
… but because he is the only guy whom you can have a lifetime conversation with.

It doesn’t matter if ignorant people brand you “mismatched”
…as long as you share something special and true, others will seize to talk about you

Loving should never be because of religion
… it has already forbidden so many things that we cannot allow anymore dictation

Intimacy is also not about the closeness of the body
…it’s talking with your eyes and how wonderful it is when your hands are interlocked

Its more than looking at his skin, his face, his nails, or the size of his shoes
… its scrutinizing his perceptions on life and finding out how great a person he is.

Being with someone is not because he makes you feel great all the time
…he must be your mirror who points out your mistakes and helps you learn from it.

Loving my dear is not because you have it all or because you give me everything,
… its about giving myself to you and still find myself full and bursting with love that I have to give it back to you again and again.

Sex and everything it is…not ( a repost becoz im that lazy to blog these days)

Thank you for even reading more than just the title and actually clicking to see what I have to say but as the title goes, it is all about sex and everything it is not. I have been wondering if the title would lure more people to read this article and I can only prove the premise when I make one, and since you have already proven me something you might as well read on… trust me, I have something to say. And you certainly will learn a thing.

I have come from a traditional Filipino family and getting hitched at a young age is a common taboo. Yes, even in college. And it didn’t help that my paternal side is Chinese and that we grew up attending Sunday service. The prospect of having a boyfriend spells marriage. Thus, I remain NBSP (no-boyfriend-since-birth). I am fairly content with my current status though because its different here in the Philippines, people usually respect you when you observe the laws set by the elders. And sex is sacred in this part of the world (or atleast to my family). There are a lot of families though who choose the revolutionary asphalt rather than the traditional bricks especially in the cities like here in Davao but there are some who still believe in the beauty of Maria Clara.

I concede that I am the least person who should be talking about sex basing from my background but since I like having big talks, I won’t let this one pass. College was far different from high-school, everything seems so new and everyone wants to have a taste of everything. Sex is naturally among them and the pressure of staying untouched during your last year is so overwhelming that students can do anything to get laid. Kissing has become less a challenge during spin-the-bottle game, comparing sexual experiences is “D Topic” of girls and boys alike, and since when is giving condoms a goodluck? The world maybe in Topsy-turvy but everybody seems to be enjoying every bit of the chaos. That ofcourse includes me, I have the pleasure of scrutinizing everybody while they kiss and pet each other right infront of me, I have come to appreciate the physiology of a human tongue more than ever and yeah I now know that withdrawal cannot kill anyone. Call me old-fashioned but I will never in my life kiss anyone I don’t love or atleast like. Duh! Why do you think people call having sex making love? Because you have to have sex with the person you love otherwise its not called love making at all. I honestly haven’t seen anyone yet doing it infront of me but the term seems to be getting more and more technical, like the process is OK as long as there is no penetration. Petting, kissing, hugging are all acceptable but the act of actually tearing a girl’s hymen is not. And that’s all that counts nowadays. Questions about morality and self-preservation shall never be acknowledged. So there.

I was able to witness a number of couples during their petting game and climax is usually guaranteed especially on the male species but frankly guys, your female counterpart don’t get as much excitement as you are obtaining. You don’t believe it guys? Yeah because females are good with acting and keeping secrets among our own kind. Trust me, girls just think that they might hurt you when you can’t see the word PLEASURE all over their faces. So next time that we initiate a conversation, put in mind that its one of our ways to distract you from your innate habit of constantly thinking about sex.. Like we know your mind would go “how are you?..1…2…3...4…5…6…sex” “yeah, im good too,1…2…3...4…5…6…sex”. Get the point? We know sex is one of man’s physical needs, thanks to Mr. Maslow who stated that we can’t reach our self-actualization without sex.. yeah, I think I’ll buy that when I’m 60, all powerful and all and still feel inadequate because of that lacking ingredient. But as of now, nah.. I’m too busy having fun to even think about that self-actualization thing.

I think I’m doing a sermon here rather than writing what’s on my mind. And I know many, if not all, find my idea too radical or even too ancient it can reach full extinction. But I don’t mind. I’m single, I very well know that I’m a prize-catch, whores think I’m worse than an ingrate bitch, most of the men I know respect and desires to be with me, and I am ending this crap. Sayonara! =)

valentines day♥

I love everything in this room..♥




... Don't worry, I'm not with my boyfriend!haha.. :)

We volunteered to arrange my cousin's fiance's room for this special day.. Aren't we just adorable? And I must say, I would never prefer any other date other than them for V. day (except ofcourse when my boyfriend is around.. :))

... after the day's work, we treat ourselves with the coldest choco and milk at cafe V. ( we just felt its the most appropriate place for V day)


I hope you had a blast yesterday too!