glee!

Okay so I know I'm an official dork just because I watched glee from season 1-2 but it always makes my day for the last week. I watched Bloody Monday since last week too and it never fails to give me nightmares. Keana keeps me busy with all her made up games which I'm not really sure how to play but I obliged just the same because I am that bored because there isn't much tasks to do.

I watched Harry potter and the deathly hollows yesterday with college friends and I cannot wait for the second part. I know it sounds lame, but doby's death kinda affected me so much that I cried. I have been crying so many times lately, I also cried watching glee which I forgot the reason why. I guess I am a cry baby after all.

And now, Im planning on buying a cellphone but I think I have to pay for my mom's bills so I have to suspend the event this December which is ok since I want to avail their promos.

I plan to got o Manila this January with my cousin but we still haven't bought tickets yet which is a bummer because it gets ridiculously expensive each time.

Anyway, I have to make some darn articles again. I cannot wait to get a proper job. article writing drains my brain and everything that is left in there.

Im still mad today which is the complete opposite of the title, and let's see what happens next.

plans are plans

You know what I don't like? its when plans don't go as planned! its not only frustrating, its inconvenient! It disrupts everything my brain has preconceived to happen and results to angst thus; this entry. I'm disappointed, actually I'm not only disappointed, I'm very disappointed and again, it makes me angry. So next time, try not to lift my spirits so high only to let it drown in salt water. I might die and if that happens, expect a visit every night. Don't worry. I know I'm exaggerating, what is an essay without drama? right? So don't make a fuss about this or I'll make another. okay? Goodbye!

Hongkong

I do not want to tell our whole adventure in HK here since it might take a day for me to finish. That's why I decided to just simply put some of the best pictures we took during our trip. Hope you'll like it!

Because you are my favorite topic

You are my bestfriend
my lover
my knight in shining armor
my soft comforter
my warm bed
my sweet lyrics
my life
the reason for my every smile
my answered prayer
my jewel so rare
my carousel
my roller coaster
my soul mate
my classmate
my lasting energizer
my only man
my courage behind
my music box
my number fan
my ultimate hero
my morning sunshine
my twinkling star
my inspiration
my brave boyfriend
my dancing partner
my duet
my refreshing air
my rock
my everything
my love
happy 15th monthsary baby! =)

13th monthsary... ♥

13 months and it only seemed like we are just starting.. I love you so much baby and I can't wait to know you more and more. kampai for a year and a month of friendship, laughter, and romance. I am looking forward for another year together. I love you and I miss you already like I always do.

conversation on ikariam over skype

[6:23:17 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: beh
[6:23:50 PM] January Dawn Te: ohhh.. naa na akong troops didto
[6:24:06 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ipadlaa sa 87:34
nicroeva na town
[6:24:19 PM] January Dawn Te: kk
[6:24:22 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ipadala ang hukbo
go go go
[6:24:30 PM] January Dawn Te: hahahha
ok2
[6:25:46 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: wen ka kaabot??
pila ang imo eta
[6:26:00 PM] January Dawn Te: la pa..loading pa
[6:26:03 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: loading time plus travel time = eta
wen??
pila ang loading time?
[6:26:33 PM] January Dawn Te: 4min
[6:26:38 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ahh ok
go beh go
mwah2
[6:26:45 PM] January Dawn Te: ok.
muwah
[6:30:02 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: love you beh
mwah2
[6:30:17 PM] January Dawn Te: hahaha... naunsa ka beh?
love yah toooooooooooo
[6:30:43 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: nanu ?
[6:31:14 PM] January Dawn Te: wala lng.. kalit2 man ka ug ingon i love you
hehheheh
(inlove)
18 min pa beh
oki.
[6:32:34 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ok w8 lng ko nimo
[6:34:18 PM] January Dawn Te: okidok!!!
muwah!
[6:54:15 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: beh\
nag bakasyon ang kalaban.
[6:54:42 PM] January Dawn Te: hah????
: hahahha tikasan
[6:55:20 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: meaning to say.. dili ta kakawat run.. well anyway change of plans ta
haha
ana jud na
wen man ka kaabot??
[6:55:39 PM] January Dawn Te: okidok.. cge2 asa man tah?
[6:55:46 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: w8 lng
ngawat ta lain
wat time pa man ka kaabot??
[6:55:59 PM] January Dawn Te: sa kdtong gispy nko?
30 min pa
[6:56:06 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: layo man to
ugma pa ta kaabot dd2
nge
[6:56:13 PM] January Dawn Te: awww.....
[6:56:17 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: dugaya pa uie
abi ko 18 min nalng
[6:56:38 PM] January Dawn Te: gani. from jek to aeden kay 1 hr man diay
mali2 to.naa ko gipahabol na troops sa 2nd na town.. mga salipawpaw
mao diay to 18min
[6:57:44 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ahh ok
[6:57:57 PM] January Dawn Te: mmmm..
ok2.. so iretreat nko ang troops?
[6:59:01 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ayaw lng.. mangawat p ata
paabuton lng taka
[6:59:13 PM] January Dawn Te: ok2
gamay ra to na troops.
maski maulaw cla sa imung troops hah
hehehe
[7:01:57 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ambot lng
[7:02:55 PM] January Dawn Te: aww..ok2
[7:17:17 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: naa naka beh??
[7:18:13 PM] January Dawn Te: 13more min
[7:18:21 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ok
[7:18:24 PM] January Dawn Te: ok2.. naa nta target?
[7:18:37 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: uu ang imong gilapagan
hehe
[7:19:13 PM] January Dawn Te: hahahahah
amawertz!!!!
tuukkon tka run!
[7:19:41 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: haha
paabuton sa gani taka
hehe
[7:20:06 PM] January Dawn Te: ok bi.. salamat sa pagpaabot
pero gusto/kailangan nko crystal
[7:20:17 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ok lng beh basta ikaw
mwah2
[7:20:28 PM] January Dawn Te: la crystal target dra?hhehehhe
muwah!!!!
[7:20:46 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ngita ta..
[7:20:53 PM] January Dawn Te: uki2!!!
ayeeeeeeee!!!10 min nlng.bwahahahah
[7:21:17 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: wala na jud diay
hehe
[7:21:29 PM] January Dawn Te: ipabakasyon nato cla tanan
hahhaha... juk lng
[7:22:05 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: pwede2
hehe
[7:22:26 PM] January Dawn Te: hahahah
abot nko
muwah
(dance)
[7:33:41 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: then,, ipadala ang imong hukbo sa kajitsushu... na town silingan sa town na omp gilapagan.. go go beh. pina abtik.
pina pitik
mwah2
\ (o)
[7:33:53 PM] January Dawn Te: hahaha
[7:34:02 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: (punch)
[7:34:45 PM] January Dawn Te: tanan?
[7:34:50 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: uu
tanan go
[7:36:18 PM] January Dawn Te: huy beh!nunsa man to!!!!!
शांpeaceति 07.07.2010 13:40 Ang iyong mga tauhan sa Nicroeva ay hindi na maaring mautusan at sila ay nagsipag-alisan kung saan-saan.
[7:36:42 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: wahaha
[7:36:43 PM] January Dawn Te: huhuhuhuhu.. y oh y?
[7:36:46 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: nawala ang imong mga troops
dugay2 pa to sila mubalik
[7:36:56 PM] January Dawn Te: nannu?
: (n)
[7:37:04 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: kay natanggal na ang occupy
:(
[7:37:15 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ;(
[7:37:17 PM] January Dawn Te: ay uie
[7:37:22 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: sayanga uie
[7:37:25 PM] January Dawn Te: nanu gitanggal man nimu?
[7:37:37 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: dili ako ang nagtanggal si banned helsing
[7:37:40 PM] January Dawn Te: naa pa bya ko muabutay na troops
[7:37:41 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ingon ko dili sa tanggalon
iya na natanggal
[7:37:47 PM] January Dawn Te: samuka uie
huhuhuhu
[7:37:52 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: wahaha
sorry beh
[7:38:00 PM] January Dawn Te: ;(
[7:38:04 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: its beyond my control
huh
[7:38:08 PM] January Dawn Te: wala.. walay klaro
[7:38:12 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: mag date pa unta ta dri na dapita
huhu
[7:38:33 PM] January Dawn Te: walaaaaaa
naa pko paabot trooops didto kaya aeden bah
18min nlng tana
akoa nlng ni iretreat uie
[7:39:37 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: cge beh retreat mo nlg...
then uli nlg pud
ana jud
kapila na pud na nahitabo sa ako
cge lng next time napud
dd2 ta sa imong na spyan
[7:40:15 PM] January Dawn Te: walaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!
dli nko
[7:40:24 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ayyyyyyyyyyyyy
dalia ra nimo musuko uie
[7:40:46 PM] January Dawn Te: samuk kaau.. igo jud pag abot bah
as in naa pa jud to didto nakatambay
dli na makit-an?
[7:41:40 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: dili na mubalik lng to sila after a day
ewan ko wen pero mubalik to sila sa imong town kng asa sila gikan
[7:42:17 PM] January Dawn Te: awwwwww...ok2.. anah bah.. sayang akong troops..
palangga bya to nko
dli ko gusto pakapuyon cla
[7:42:52 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: wahaha
tagae lng dayon to sila ug mga wine
[7:43:08 PM] January Dawn Te: amboooooooooooot
[7:43:08 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: pero nag selos ko sa ila
kay mas love pa nmo sila
kamo nlng \
[7:43:17 PM] January Dawn Te: hahahahaha
unsa man?
kmi nlng?
[7:43:30 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: kamo nlng sa imo mga troops
mas love man nmo sila
[7:43:45 PM] January Dawn Te: hahahaha
[7:43:45 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: (u)
haha
[7:43:48 PM] January Dawn Te: buing!
nagsakit bya jud akong heart hah.. as in
[7:44:10 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: haha
[7:44:18 PM] January Dawn Te: gipahawa nlng unta sa akong troops..grrrrr
[7:44:20 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ok lng na kaysa mangamatay sila na walang kalaban2
[7:48:14 PM] January Dawn Te: so mamatay ka dra ha?
bwahahahhaa
beh.. naa ko troops sa 2nd na town.pwde pko mag-apas sa imu if nkaocccupy pka dra
[7:52:54 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: u unaka occupy pako dri.. apas nlng kng kaabot pa ka.. hehe
w8 ngita nlng ko laing target sabay ta
[7:53:48 PM] January Dawn Te: mmmm..kk.. mortars and h. de makina ra man ni
[7:53:56 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ahh ok
cge padal ang ang mga troops nimo.
dd2 as akong gioccupy
[7:56:08 PM] January Dawn Te: pabalik pa sa 2nd town uie
[7:56:15 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ahh ok
[7:56:20 PM] January Dawn Te: 27min b4 mkabalik
[7:56:26 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: wahaha
[7:56:39 PM] January Dawn Te: ayaw kko kataw-i!!!
(punch)
[7:57:05 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: (punch)
[7:57:08 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: sa man??
[7:57:09 PM] January Dawn Te: :@
[7:57:12 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: sumbagay nlng
[7:57:18 PM] January Dawn Te: (n)
boooo
[7:57:21 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: malibang man diay
haha
[7:57:34 PM] January Dawn Te: :*
[7:57:37 PM] January Dawn Te: sa man?
[7:57:42 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: (emo)
[7:57:43 PM] January Dawn Te: (hug)
hehehehe... emo man diay
hahaa
[7:58:00 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: haha
ana jud na
[7:59:40 PM] January Dawn Te: tulog na ikaw beh.. nyt2
[7:59:46 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: uu
unya taud
nyt beh
[8:00:01 PM] January Dawn Te: mmmm.. ma-unsa pa diay?
[8:00:03 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: love you
mwah2
[8:00:06 PM] January Dawn Te: kaon beh hah
love u too
muwah!
ingat ka lagi beh
: :*
[8:04:14 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: :* love you beh
nmwah2

T.T

We last saw each other 15 days ago and already I miss him terriblyyyyy…. It’s a horrible horrible and I mean horrible feeling to always feel this way everytime he’s away, I wish we can go back in time where we see each other everyday in school or even during review and not worry about missing each other. *sigh* Skyping and YMing don’t even help a bit uh-uh *shaking head* ….. we decided hearing each other’s voice makes it a lot worse especially when he calls me at night and we both agree how beautiful the moon is and just how many stars there are in the sky. * heaves another long sigh* I miss their place especially the “payag” just outside the house. It reminds me of the cottages in Samal.. ahhhhh.. Samal.. when art thou I see you again?

He’s supposed to come and visit me this Wednesday to celebrate our monthsarry together but the hospital called last week and informed him that they will start the training today. Imagine how devastating such good news like that can be. He promised he’ll come by during day offs and he said he will come for our anniversary no matter what. Weeeeeeee!!!

Anyway, I have to sleep early... our skyping and YMing must be done in the morning so goodnight!

scared to death

I have never been this scared of death before... we have just visited a relative of ours whose dad passed away while asleep. When life has so much to offer, when dreams come in endless queue, and when you want to do so much more one cant help but cringe to the idea of comfortably lying in a shiny coffin for people to see. I want to have a job, live recklessly elsewhere, get married and have kids someday and finally die in a ripe old age content with everything I have in life.

Sometimes there are just days when you want to hold dearly to the life you have and never wish it to be taken away, some days you just plead everything to end in a snap. But today, I pray for the former.

title??? i dont know..ummm.... love??

You love someone not because he gives the whole world at your command
..but because with him you learn that its intricacy is what makes it magnificent.

Not even because he reaches out the stars for you
… but because they seem brighter when you stare at them together.

You don’t love him because he is the epitome of perfection
… you’re just glad that you don’t have to be perfect to deserve this piece of sunshine.

Loving is not about smiling all day and walking in the clouds
… its about the unexpected burst of an array of feelings each time you’re together

I don’t even think that its because you have a promising future together
… but because he is the only guy whom you can have a lifetime conversation with.

It doesn’t matter if ignorant people brand you “mismatched”
…as long as you share something special and true, others will seize to talk about you

Loving should never be because of religion
… it has already forbidden so many things that we cannot allow anymore dictation

Intimacy is also not about the closeness of the body
…it’s talking with your eyes and how wonderful it is when your hands are interlocked

Its more than looking at his skin, his face, his nails, or the size of his shoes
… its scrutinizing his perceptions on life and finding out how great a person he is.

Being with someone is not because he makes you feel great all the time
…he must be your mirror who points out your mistakes and helps you learn from it.

Loving my dear is not because you have it all or because you give me everything,
… its about giving myself to you and still find myself full and bursting with love that I have to give it back to you again and again.

Sex and everything it is…not ( a repost becoz im that lazy to blog these days)

Thank you for even reading more than just the title and actually clicking to see what I have to say but as the title goes, it is all about sex and everything it is not. I have been wondering if the title would lure more people to read this article and I can only prove the premise when I make one, and since you have already proven me something you might as well read on… trust me, I have something to say. And you certainly will learn a thing.

I have come from a traditional Filipino family and getting hitched at a young age is a common taboo. Yes, even in college. And it didn’t help that my paternal side is Chinese and that we grew up attending Sunday service. The prospect of having a boyfriend spells marriage. Thus, I remain NBSP (no-boyfriend-since-birth). I am fairly content with my current status though because its different here in the Philippines, people usually respect you when you observe the laws set by the elders. And sex is sacred in this part of the world (or atleast to my family). There are a lot of families though who choose the revolutionary asphalt rather than the traditional bricks especially in the cities like here in Davao but there are some who still believe in the beauty of Maria Clara.

I concede that I am the least person who should be talking about sex basing from my background but since I like having big talks, I won’t let this one pass. College was far different from high-school, everything seems so new and everyone wants to have a taste of everything. Sex is naturally among them and the pressure of staying untouched during your last year is so overwhelming that students can do anything to get laid. Kissing has become less a challenge during spin-the-bottle game, comparing sexual experiences is “D Topic” of girls and boys alike, and since when is giving condoms a goodluck? The world maybe in Topsy-turvy but everybody seems to be enjoying every bit of the chaos. That ofcourse includes me, I have the pleasure of scrutinizing everybody while they kiss and pet each other right infront of me, I have come to appreciate the physiology of a human tongue more than ever and yeah I now know that withdrawal cannot kill anyone. Call me old-fashioned but I will never in my life kiss anyone I don’t love or atleast like. Duh! Why do you think people call having sex making love? Because you have to have sex with the person you love otherwise its not called love making at all. I honestly haven’t seen anyone yet doing it infront of me but the term seems to be getting more and more technical, like the process is OK as long as there is no penetration. Petting, kissing, hugging are all acceptable but the act of actually tearing a girl’s hymen is not. And that’s all that counts nowadays. Questions about morality and self-preservation shall never be acknowledged. So there.

I was able to witness a number of couples during their petting game and climax is usually guaranteed especially on the male species but frankly guys, your female counterpart don’t get as much excitement as you are obtaining. You don’t believe it guys? Yeah because females are good with acting and keeping secrets among our own kind. Trust me, girls just think that they might hurt you when you can’t see the word PLEASURE all over their faces. So next time that we initiate a conversation, put in mind that its one of our ways to distract you from your innate habit of constantly thinking about sex.. Like we know your mind would go “how are you?..1…2…3...4…5…6…sex” “yeah, im good too,1…2…3...4…5…6…sex”. Get the point? We know sex is one of man’s physical needs, thanks to Mr. Maslow who stated that we can’t reach our self-actualization without sex.. yeah, I think I’ll buy that when I’m 60, all powerful and all and still feel inadequate because of that lacking ingredient. But as of now, nah.. I’m too busy having fun to even think about that self-actualization thing.

I think I’m doing a sermon here rather than writing what’s on my mind. And I know many, if not all, find my idea too radical or even too ancient it can reach full extinction. But I don’t mind. I’m single, I very well know that I’m a prize-catch, whores think I’m worse than an ingrate bitch, most of the men I know respect and desires to be with me, and I am ending this crap. Sayonara! =)

valentines day♥

I love everything in this room..♥




... Don't worry, I'm not with my boyfriend!haha.. :)

We volunteered to arrange my cousin's fiance's room for this special day.. Aren't we just adorable? And I must say, I would never prefer any other date other than them for V. day (except ofcourse when my boyfriend is around.. :))

... after the day's work, we treat ourselves with the coldest choco and milk at cafe V. ( we just felt its the most appropriate place for V day)


I hope you had a blast yesterday too!

my week long celebration

Sunday evening I received the greatest gift for the start of 2010. I passed the PNLE!!! and to brag some more.... all of my classmates and closest friends made it to the top 39% too! That way, no body has to worry about awkward greetings and give ambivalent smiles. And since this is the day all of us has been salivating since day one in college, I'm pretty sure everybody had their own twist to commemorate this rare event.

*MONDAY:
Shobe introduced me to the yummiest (and biggest!) burger I've ever tasted.
Tadah! BROTHER'S BURGER!!!! *SAY IT WITH LOUD BARITONE VOICE*

photo from here

I ordered Mcflurry to pair with our big brothers burger just around the corner because burgers are yummier with sundaes... believe me on this. Check out their store at Damosa Gateway at the back of Concentrix. If you are a food junkie Damosa is definitely the place you wanna go to. they house different foodstuffs that can tickle your palate ranging from Mcdo, Yellowcab, Swiss deli, Tsuru, and so much more you can only wish you live nearby.

In the evening, We visit Marian's father's wake at St. Peters chapel along with our classmates. It was bittersweet for her because she lost her father the night she learned about the result. We stayed there for a while because everybody has so much to tell to each other.

*TUESDAY:
I asked mama and mommy if Jayson can stay for the week. They obliged only if we sleep in different rooms. He chose the sala over our deserted( and probably haunted) guest-converted room. hehehe... He came just in time for merienda and since we will be having dinner at home ( death anniversary of Uncle Peter) we opted to eat light meal at greewich pizza hauz.
photo from here

... just before going home we bumped on Hernani (his bestfriend in high school) and chatted for a while. He passed the Board too! We passed our time at People's park and talk about how great that everybody we know made it! And to help digest the food we walked to our house just in time for dinner at Mommy's house.

*WEDNESDAY:
photo from here

We woke up early so we can exercise at people's park. We walked on the way there freezing because we don't have jackets on and jogged a couple of rounds before going home. Jayson and the Section A boys have a basketball match so I stayed at home the whole morning watching TV and surfing the net. After, we met up with his college friends, helped Ace do his grocery and ate at an eat all you can eating house. I forgot the name and I wouldn't be going back there anyway, so i guess its OK.

We bought some 8-in-1 dvd along Bonifacio street, some 3-in-1 coffee and junkfoods for our spontaneously planned movie marathon but he was so tired to finish even one movie so we called it a night and slept early for tomorrow.

*THURSDAY:
The boys were planning just yesterday that we go around Davao to catch up and wind up since Marion can use his car but the plan didn't pursue so we get to spend a couple of time together. We went to the mall and tried every game in the arcade. And since we don't have budget for lunch, we opted to eat at their food court. but the lechon kawali with hot sauce with macaroni salad as desert turned out to be quite a meal and we promised on going back at Jumbo some time. They certainly lived up to their name with all their jumbo rice and jumbo viand.
We went home after with a full stomach...

Merienda consists of Mcdo's large fries and their new flavored-sundaes.. i fell inlove immediately with the strawberry/choco filled desert!

Dinner we spent with his sister Elle and her bestfriend Obell. And since everybody is craving for pizza. BIG time! He ordered their overloaded on thin crust pizza paired with fries on peppered mayo toppings.

In late evening, I met up with my college friends. Alpha phi Gwapha mhi. Meloi is right, zabadani housed the cheapest tea and the most accommodating host there is. We spent the evening there with laughter and good news. It's always great catching up with the girls. We ended the evening at midnight. tired and full and with a new respect for tea, Islam, and body posture.
photo from here

*FRIDAY:
We woke up early for the thanksgiving mass at San pedro church by Merge family. then ruled the streets with our motorcade after.

Jayson's last vacation day at home. We decided to use the time to get our precious diploma in school. while there, we saw our supervisor Sir Paolo, the other RLE supervisors, and our assistant dean Maam Isidor. They congratulated us for the 100% passing rate of our section. It feels good to be part of section A... :)

We visited Wotis since the attendants there are friends with Jayson and they always call him pastor. *giggles

After, We opted to go to Mang manok instead of Picobello. We wanted to eat rice since its 3 in the afternoon and we didnt eat lunch yet. It was worth it! we ordered 3-pieces fried chicken with unlimited rice and sizzling sisig paired with 1.5 liter coke. whew! my stomach was about to burst.
photo from here

earlier that evening I went to Evangel Family Church to visit some old friends and watch a film show called "the blind side". it was quite a movie and I learned a thing about trust and family. After church is the Red shindig sponsored by MERGE. We had a blast at Victoriano's enjoying anything from food to free snacks and beverages.



... we went to Chyrel's place at Toril and spent a coupe of hours there. we decided we need to go home at 3 am and I dozed off to sleep until afternoon the next day.

*SATURDAY:
Our triple Celebration. Karla's 17th birthday, Van2x's 11th birthday, and my thanksgiving party.
I love the fact that everybody contributed to the success of the event. My mama and papa donated lechon and softdrinks, auntie Lea and uncle Nikki prepared all the food and pastries, Auntie Ner made deserts, Ate joy busied herself with the decors ( candles and tarpaulins), Auntie Beth and Uncle Bobong prepared their house and I give them the credit for the wonderful lights outside and for accommodating us all for the night.



I Love you guys!!!!♥♥♥

we made it!!!!

37, 527 out of 94,462 Nursing Graduates Passed the November, 2009

credits to doby


And to all my friends who passed: ABASHAKE, ALPHA PHI GWAPHA MHI, A09, ABAD SANTOS, ELEMENTARY FRIENDS, MERGE FAMILY.. Congratulations!!! we really made it! i love you guys!

The Power of a Human Mind (repost from my thoughts.com)

Watching Discovery Channel helps me see trivial but essential stuffs beyond the fog of familiarity. Sometimes even the most petty of things that people so often overlook or just wouldn’t care noticing at all is the key element for a good life. Allow me to quantify.

Let’s face it, we have to make a decision almost every second. The way we walk, where to go, what to say, how we talk, to pick up the coin along the street or not. And even big decisions must be done in a snap, we have to decide whether or not to eat an extra-large burger, to submit in a hypnotic state, join an organization or a religious group and would you believe that sometimes people can decide whether or not to feel pain and bleed? And maybe witches have extra power because they believe they can learn and eventually obtain it. Hence, it is like saying that everything we are and everything we feel and do is because of the works of our brain.

The power of our brain is more than what any Einsteiner can comprehend. Even Socrates’ reason will be in vain explaining human behavior in relation on how our brain works. Ask every neurologist around for a simpler and more comprehensible explanation on the works of every neuron, chemical, and cells in our brain during decision-making and you will get vague, puzzle-like answers. Nobody can explain it.

Decisions are done with the effort of our brain, the chemicals secreted by our body, our attitude towards the subject, and our personality. It is all interrelated, meaning there is no concrete explanation to every human behavior because every behavior manifested by men is subjected to him and not to any other things around him. People who have done a crime knows what they are doing, even the most drunk is still conscious of the things around him. We cannot force anyone to do something against their own will, thus if the alibi of the crime is hypnosis, or drugs, or alcohol, or mental illness, I believe he/she should still be punished for such deviant acts.

The human brains works in ways we cannot fully understand. I have read about a cult in Iran where adult and children alike literally puncture themselves with ice picks, knives, and even swords and they claim that it creates no pain. Scientists have examined one member and indeed, the prostaglandin (a pain chemical) secretion is decreased during piercing when he meditates. Another is the art of knocking someone out without even touching the person. Thus called No Touch Knockout. I do not believe in this either but I cannot judge those people who have been knock out by this method. Why do some people feel so little pain? Why are some people knocked out without even touching? While some don’t? That’s because they believe in the concept. What we believe is sometimes more powerful than what we feel. Maybe that is why some hospitals in America are using the revolutionary mind healing to alleviate the suffering of the sick.

In conclusion, if you are in the brink of tears because of pain, remember that it is all in our mind. Even the most hurtful of circumstance can be avoided when we keep in mind this simple fact, Brain Has the Power to Drastically Change Your Emotion. Thus the saying mind over emotion. So next time you feel like eating that high-caloric meal, or crying over a stupid person, or feeling depressed of your body image, just remember That Its All In Your Mind. 

Puhleezzzz!!!! --.--

.... Remember my brother's boyfriend's name?

uhuh... him.

They call each other "baby!" !!!! BABY!!!!!

Darn it!.. It's either pure coincidence or my brother just really wanted to emulate my every action that he has to act well... *shrugs* like a girl, get a boyfriend with the same name as mine, and call each other the same way as we do *twitch*

He never fails to surprise me. I just wish he would never get as far as wearing my panties on. (wait! I get a feeling he already did! darn it!!!!!)

lunch in the sight of manong manlilimos

After a day's work I was ready to go home, dress in the most comfy cotton t-shirt, eat my already prepared lunch, and watch some good dvds after. I was feeling pretty good at myself as my student is very attentive and is interested to learn.. thus, smiling at myself, I walked along the busy street of Claveria humming at the sound of Lady Gaga's Bad Romance from my Ipod while holding a cellphone on the other trying to use up everything smart unlimited text can provide. As I drew near the corner, I caught a glimpse of an old man dressed in a rugged t-shirt, with an equally rugged shorts and almost-useless slippers. He was sitting at the corner of an abandoned hotel (which I think is very ironic) having lunch ( i presume coz its already past 12 nn). The sight was beyond anything I can describe or would want to describe.... I never dared take a second glance of him hence I might broke down and say sorry for being such a brat at home (not that he cares)... His lunch consists of a bottled water (one that you knew at first glance that it was refilled) and a junkfood (not the nova/piatos/pringles type but one that you usually see hanging on sari-sari stores). Uhuh... that 1-peso worth of junkfood is the old man's lunch that day. The kind that we used to eat when we we're younger not because it tastes good but because of the freebies inside.. *sigh* It's a heartbreaking sight and one day when I see that man again.. I'll stop by and give him my 5 peso worth of biscuit.. It might not be much but atleast he'll get enough calories to get by even for just that day...

coincidence?

My boyfriend's name is Jayson..

My brother's boyfriend's name is Jason.

Coincidence? Yeah right!

what now???... really what now?

It has been a month since the board exam has passed and I have a lucrative job that only requires my presence and my meager knowledge on English. I have to turn down the other 2 jobs offered to me by ( Merge as a Review Assistant and Meno Gaia as an online English Tutor) because of one common factor. They need me to stay on the job for 6 months... and I can't. I don't think I want to either.

See I'm blessed to have parents working in Japan who are only too eager to have me join them there. and what keeps me here in Davao is the fact that I'm waiting for my license to come which can be totally useless in the end owing to the fact that I will be applying as a care giver as a stepping stone.

I urged mama and papa for ages to allow me to come and work in Japan since I don't need a license anyway. All I have to prove is I have a Japanese blood circulating in my arteries but they won't budge and I don't know exactly the reason why. But i pray I'll be able to bring that darn paper with me for them to see.. I really really do..Ohhhh.. you don't know how much I need it. Its value can beat that of the visa I tell you.. yup! that much!

..Ofcoarse I have to mention here Jayson (yeah him again, I need to plan my future with him in it..otherwise.. it would be a total blur). Jayson and I must marry first before he can fly with me and I'll be darn if he'll agree. I know that guy all too well to expect an approving nod. And his family has a plan on their own for him too so yeah, That's the saddest part. The only consolation is we will be both working in Asia, only he'll be on the western part and I on the eastern part. Crap! This is nuts! Why do people need to work outside the country to earn decent salary?!!!
Ohh... This is mad! And i can't do anything.. we need this...
**wait!tissue please...

Barely 2 weeks to go before we can finally take a glimpse of that board result and the only thing that keeps my mind off that fact is work..*** and internet! Oh God, please please let me pass! I need this God. And so does Jayson and all my friends and classmates.. Ohh.. I believe everybody does so.... ummmm... just please let me, Jayson. and my friends pass and those that deserve to pass let them pass too. I know I know... I want everyone to pass but I will pray extra extra hard for those close to my heart.

The future is a blur. But I'm thankful it isn't dark at all...

psstt... psstt! mishu pangit

Thank you movie In my Life (starring John Lloyd and Sarah) for that super hackneyed ring tone. Remember that annoying sound you hear everytime the couples’ phone ring? Yup! That infamous *coughs..ehem..imitating Sarah’s voice* “baby ko… baby ko.. baby ko….. ” everytime they receive a message or call?

Yup! That’s it! Thank God you still remember... Well... I know its corny and all but I lured Jayson to record his own voice on my phone too. That was ages ago and I never thought how I would look forward to receiving a message just so I can hear his voice calling me even if its just SMART reminding me about my expired unlitext. Never mind Shobe complaining about how unoriginal we are and never mind everybody saying how annoying I am to really wait for the ringtone to finish before flipping open my phone. It’s the only thing that would make me laugh whenever his presence is missing. Try it! Even waking up in the morning at the sound of your boyfriend’s voice would make the morning seem so bright and perfect. :-D

Its my Birthday!!!!!!

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