13th monthsary... ♥

13 months and it only seemed like we are just starting.. I love you so much baby and I can't wait to know you more and more. kampai for a year and a month of friendship, laughter, and romance. I am looking forward for another year together. I love you and I miss you already like I always do.

conversation on ikariam over skype

[6:23:17 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: beh
[6:23:50 PM] January Dawn Te: ohhh.. naa na akong troops didto
[6:24:06 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ipadlaa sa 87:34
nicroeva na town
[6:24:19 PM] January Dawn Te: kk
[6:24:22 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ipadala ang hukbo
go go go
[6:24:30 PM] January Dawn Te: hahahha
ok2
[6:25:46 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: wen ka kaabot??
pila ang imo eta
[6:26:00 PM] January Dawn Te: la pa..loading pa
[6:26:03 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: loading time plus travel time = eta
wen??
pila ang loading time?
[6:26:33 PM] January Dawn Te: 4min
[6:26:38 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ahh ok
go beh go
mwah2
[6:26:45 PM] January Dawn Te: ok.
muwah
[6:30:02 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: love you beh
mwah2
[6:30:17 PM] January Dawn Te: hahaha... naunsa ka beh?
love yah toooooooooooo
[6:30:43 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: nanu ?
[6:31:14 PM] January Dawn Te: wala lng.. kalit2 man ka ug ingon i love you
hehheheh
(inlove)
18 min pa beh
oki.
[6:32:34 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ok w8 lng ko nimo
[6:34:18 PM] January Dawn Te: okidok!!!
muwah!
[6:54:15 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: beh\
nag bakasyon ang kalaban.
[6:54:42 PM] January Dawn Te: hah????
: hahahha tikasan
[6:55:20 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: meaning to say.. dili ta kakawat run.. well anyway change of plans ta
haha
ana jud na
wen man ka kaabot??
[6:55:39 PM] January Dawn Te: okidok.. cge2 asa man tah?
[6:55:46 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: w8 lng
ngawat ta lain
wat time pa man ka kaabot??
[6:55:59 PM] January Dawn Te: sa kdtong gispy nko?
30 min pa
[6:56:06 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: layo man to
ugma pa ta kaabot dd2
nge
[6:56:13 PM] January Dawn Te: awww.....
[6:56:17 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: dugaya pa uie
abi ko 18 min nalng
[6:56:38 PM] January Dawn Te: gani. from jek to aeden kay 1 hr man diay
mali2 to.naa ko gipahabol na troops sa 2nd na town.. mga salipawpaw
mao diay to 18min
[6:57:44 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ahh ok
[6:57:57 PM] January Dawn Te: mmmm..
ok2.. so iretreat nko ang troops?
[6:59:01 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ayaw lng.. mangawat p ata
paabuton lng taka
[6:59:13 PM] January Dawn Te: ok2
gamay ra to na troops.
maski maulaw cla sa imung troops hah
hehehe
[7:01:57 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ambot lng
[7:02:55 PM] January Dawn Te: aww..ok2
[7:17:17 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: naa naka beh??
[7:18:13 PM] January Dawn Te: 13more min
[7:18:21 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ok
[7:18:24 PM] January Dawn Te: ok2.. naa nta target?
[7:18:37 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: uu ang imong gilapagan
hehe
[7:19:13 PM] January Dawn Te: hahahahah
amawertz!!!!
tuukkon tka run!
[7:19:41 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: haha
paabuton sa gani taka
hehe
[7:20:06 PM] January Dawn Te: ok bi.. salamat sa pagpaabot
pero gusto/kailangan nko crystal
[7:20:17 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ok lng beh basta ikaw
mwah2
[7:20:28 PM] January Dawn Te: la crystal target dra?hhehehhe
muwah!!!!
[7:20:46 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ngita ta..
[7:20:53 PM] January Dawn Te: uki2!!!
ayeeeeeeee!!!10 min nlng.bwahahahah
[7:21:17 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: wala na jud diay
hehe
[7:21:29 PM] January Dawn Te: ipabakasyon nato cla tanan
hahhaha... juk lng
[7:22:05 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: pwede2
hehe
[7:22:26 PM] January Dawn Te: hahahah
abot nko
muwah
(dance)
[7:33:41 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: then,, ipadala ang imong hukbo sa kajitsushu... na town silingan sa town na omp gilapagan.. go go beh. pina abtik.
pina pitik
mwah2
\ (o)
[7:33:53 PM] January Dawn Te: hahaha
[7:34:02 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: (punch)
[7:34:45 PM] January Dawn Te: tanan?
[7:34:50 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: uu
tanan go
[7:36:18 PM] January Dawn Te: huy beh!nunsa man to!!!!!
शांpeaceति 07.07.2010 13:40 Ang iyong mga tauhan sa Nicroeva ay hindi na maaring mautusan at sila ay nagsipag-alisan kung saan-saan.
[7:36:42 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: wahaha
[7:36:43 PM] January Dawn Te: huhuhuhuhu.. y oh y?
[7:36:46 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: nawala ang imong mga troops
dugay2 pa to sila mubalik
[7:36:56 PM] January Dawn Te: nannu?
: (n)
[7:37:04 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: kay natanggal na ang occupy
:(
[7:37:15 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ;(
[7:37:17 PM] January Dawn Te: ay uie
[7:37:22 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: sayanga uie
[7:37:25 PM] January Dawn Te: nanu gitanggal man nimu?
[7:37:37 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: dili ako ang nagtanggal si banned helsing
[7:37:40 PM] January Dawn Te: naa pa bya ko muabutay na troops
[7:37:41 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ingon ko dili sa tanggalon
iya na natanggal
[7:37:47 PM] January Dawn Te: samuka uie
huhuhuhu
[7:37:52 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: wahaha
sorry beh
[7:38:00 PM] January Dawn Te: ;(
[7:38:04 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: its beyond my control
huh
[7:38:08 PM] January Dawn Te: wala.. walay klaro
[7:38:12 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: mag date pa unta ta dri na dapita
huhu
[7:38:33 PM] January Dawn Te: walaaaaaa
naa pko paabot trooops didto kaya aeden bah
18min nlng tana
akoa nlng ni iretreat uie
[7:39:37 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: cge beh retreat mo nlg...
then uli nlg pud
ana jud
kapila na pud na nahitabo sa ako
cge lng next time napud
dd2 ta sa imong na spyan
[7:40:15 PM] January Dawn Te: walaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!
dli nko
[7:40:24 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ayyyyyyyyyyyyy
dalia ra nimo musuko uie
[7:40:46 PM] January Dawn Te: samuk kaau.. igo jud pag abot bah
as in naa pa jud to didto nakatambay
dli na makit-an?
[7:41:40 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: dili na mubalik lng to sila after a day
ewan ko wen pero mubalik to sila sa imong town kng asa sila gikan
[7:42:17 PM] January Dawn Te: awwwwww...ok2.. anah bah.. sayang akong troops..
palangga bya to nko
dli ko gusto pakapuyon cla
[7:42:52 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: wahaha
tagae lng dayon to sila ug mga wine
[7:43:08 PM] January Dawn Te: amboooooooooooot
[7:43:08 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: pero nag selos ko sa ila
kay mas love pa nmo sila
kamo nlng \
[7:43:17 PM] January Dawn Te: hahahahaha
unsa man?
kmi nlng?
[7:43:30 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: kamo nlng sa imo mga troops
mas love man nmo sila
[7:43:45 PM] January Dawn Te: hahahaha
[7:43:45 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: (u)
haha
[7:43:48 PM] January Dawn Te: buing!
nagsakit bya jud akong heart hah.. as in
[7:44:10 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: haha
[7:44:18 PM] January Dawn Te: gipahawa nlng unta sa akong troops..grrrrr
[7:44:20 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ok lng na kaysa mangamatay sila na walang kalaban2
[7:48:14 PM] January Dawn Te: so mamatay ka dra ha?
bwahahahhaa
beh.. naa ko troops sa 2nd na town.pwde pko mag-apas sa imu if nkaocccupy pka dra
[7:52:54 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: u unaka occupy pako dri.. apas nlng kng kaabot pa ka.. hehe
w8 ngita nlng ko laing target sabay ta
[7:53:48 PM] January Dawn Te: mmmm..kk.. mortars and h. de makina ra man ni
[7:53:56 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ahh ok
cge padal ang ang mga troops nimo.
dd2 as akong gioccupy
[7:56:08 PM] January Dawn Te: pabalik pa sa 2nd town uie
[7:56:15 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: ahh ok
[7:56:20 PM] January Dawn Te: 27min b4 mkabalik
[7:56:26 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: wahaha
[7:56:39 PM] January Dawn Te: ayaw kko kataw-i!!!
(punch)
[7:57:05 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: (punch)
[7:57:08 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: sa man??
[7:57:09 PM] January Dawn Te: :@
[7:57:12 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: sumbagay nlng
[7:57:18 PM] January Dawn Te: (n)
boooo
[7:57:21 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: malibang man diay
haha
[7:57:34 PM] January Dawn Te: :*
[7:57:37 PM] January Dawn Te: sa man?
[7:57:42 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: (emo)
[7:57:43 PM] January Dawn Te: (hug)
hehehehe... emo man diay
hahaa
[7:58:00 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: haha
ana jud na
[7:59:40 PM] January Dawn Te: tulog na ikaw beh.. nyt2
[7:59:46 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: uu
unya taud
nyt beh
[8:00:01 PM] January Dawn Te: mmmm.. ma-unsa pa diay?
[8:00:03 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: love you
mwah2
[8:00:06 PM] January Dawn Te: kaon beh hah
love u too
muwah!
ingat ka lagi beh
: :*
[8:04:14 PM] aaa. Jayson L. Ledesma: :* love you beh
nmwah2

T.T

We last saw each other 15 days ago and already I miss him terriblyyyyy…. It’s a horrible horrible and I mean horrible feeling to always feel this way everytime he’s away, I wish we can go back in time where we see each other everyday in school or even during review and not worry about missing each other. *sigh* Skyping and YMing don’t even help a bit uh-uh *shaking head* ….. we decided hearing each other’s voice makes it a lot worse especially when he calls me at night and we both agree how beautiful the moon is and just how many stars there are in the sky. * heaves another long sigh* I miss their place especially the “payag” just outside the house. It reminds me of the cottages in Samal.. ahhhhh.. Samal.. when art thou I see you again?

He’s supposed to come and visit me this Wednesday to celebrate our monthsarry together but the hospital called last week and informed him that they will start the training today. Imagine how devastating such good news like that can be. He promised he’ll come by during day offs and he said he will come for our anniversary no matter what. Weeeeeeee!!!

Anyway, I have to sleep early... our skyping and YMing must be done in the morning so goodnight!

scared to death

I have never been this scared of death before... we have just visited a relative of ours whose dad passed away while asleep. When life has so much to offer, when dreams come in endless queue, and when you want to do so much more one cant help but cringe to the idea of comfortably lying in a shiny coffin for people to see. I want to have a job, live recklessly elsewhere, get married and have kids someday and finally die in a ripe old age content with everything I have in life.

Sometimes there are just days when you want to hold dearly to the life you have and never wish it to be taken away, some days you just plead everything to end in a snap. But today, I pray for the former.